MontanaBlack: Zwischen Drogenexzessen und Sinneswandel
In the end, I don't even have to wonder if I want to keep streaming. The question is whether people still want me to keep streaming. Because in the end you live by whether people are interested in you and whether people continue to be interested in me at 50 or 60. You? I do not know, I do not know. We'll see when the time comes. I'm Marcel. I'm 34 years old, I come from Buxtehude. And I do, it's probably called an influencer. I don't really like the term though. I do cool stuff on the internet. Faster granny. So go full speed. full throttle!
He passed! Today comes the video that many have wanted, the "Try not to laugh Challenge". I grew up in Buxtehude. It's not a big city, it's not a small town, 40,000 people and I'm a bit, I don't want to say multicultural, if it exists, I'm probably multicultural already. More like in the Buxtehude ghetto until I was eleven years old, we moved and I grew up well. We lacked nothing. But we didn't have much either, and what was missing was replaced by Grandma and Grandpa. I have German-Turkish citizenship. You won't believe me. But that's so yes. When I say that I am a German Turk and have Turkish ancestors on my mother's side, almost no one believes me, because me too, what do you associate with a Turk?
Naturally with a bushy beard, dark skin, brown eyes, black hair. I didn't grow up with it, so I don't have any connection to it. I'm a bit upset because I would have liked to learn another language too. But even my mother couldn't speak Turkish because her parents didn't teach her. But not even my mother could speak Turkish. Now we are learning Turkish. Yes = Event. Speaker 1: There's... That's really complicated. Why not just say no? Hay... Please = Memnu... Digga, I have no idea. So my Turkish ancestors, my Turkish roots don't really play a role in my life, because they were on my mother's side.
I also had some connection to my mother's family, but very little. Her parents, her father died very young, I never got to know him. Her mother also died very young when I was a child. And the relationship, as I already mentioned, between my mother and her parents was anything but great. Like I said, violence played a huge role, alcoholism played a huge role. Well, I grew up, quite normally actually, I'd say. My mother had me relatively early, I think I was 19, and she was at home. In theory, that means that many have predicted that she will become a social catcher.
At that time she was still on welfare, not Hartz4 and she had many children and lived on welfare. Yes folks, you may not have thought of that in real life, but this is my mommy and I asked you some questions on Facebook, which we will now answer together. But don't you want to say hello first? Hello! I'm very proud of her. She trained as an educator and now works at home or at the home club where she used to be as a child. Help the children now where she might have needed help before. And so the circle is closed, because my father also worked there and sometimes he took me there with him.
Hello. Hello my active friends and welcome. Another special little video today, because my dad is here at the beginning. Oberspritzer, now put a greeting on the table. Because we don't have them. You can only say 'hello'. Hello running! Yes, my father has played a role in my life, without a doubt. But I wouldn't say we have this father-son relationship because my parents split up. Well, they never got married, they broke up when I was a year old or so. Yeah, and I actually had a good time with my dad, for sure. He lived in Lüneburg at the time.
She shaped me a lot, musically too, above all. But then I got high when I was young and in the end I decided to take drugs and not spend the weekend with him. Then we have the next question from Dave and he asks: What would he do if you went back to drugs? So a really hard foundation of trust would be destroyed a second and third time. I agree. And consequently, I think there would be a big alarm here. And I have the greatest respect for the fact that he has really been able to hold out for so long.
I only grew up on YouTube. I made YouTube first and then I got my foot in the door of Twitch. So I no longer cut my videos myself. I've had a permanent employee there for three years, Leon. The game changer was simply that you didn't work or worked little and had plenty of time to deal with it. And the technology got more modern and certain games had features where you could upload clips directly to YouTube. Hello my Call of Duty friends! I'm playing a search and destroy game in Yemen. I have the Chicom with a red dot and a long barrel. there is one.
You probably need a sip of objective water. Me too. Well, I've never been anywhere, game-wise. Neither did Docshield. But I've never been known to offer rude plays. I think the beginning of YouTube for me in 2013, 2014 was, like everything else, more tense. Very few spoke about drug use or their experiences and falls. And I stopped. Now everyone says, somehow felt everything on the Internet. Everyone spreads the message: Me, be open to everything, respect everyone. It is much more tolerant. Internet, as I always say: I was in the right place at the right time. I don't think the concept is in quotes.
It wasn't a concept, but what I did back then, if I were to do it again one by one now, I probably wouldn't be as successful as now. Many people on the Internet have become what viewers want them to be. Do this, do this, do that, but I never became what viewers wanted. I have always been who I want to be, that is, Marcel. Speaker 2: I just didn't give a damn about school, like that. I didn't give a damn about school. I have said it many times in my videos. How do you want, at 15 or 16 years old, to realize that what you are doing at this moment is the sign of your future?
For me at 15 16 I didn't give a damn about my future. I lived in the here and now and for me it was important: What are the boys doing tonight? Where can we go Where can we relax Where can we smoke weed in peace? I realized too late that school and learning is what I will theoretically be later on. Not everyone is lucky enough to be in the right place at the right time like me to make money from internet things. But reality is what you do, you're later. And a wise man as an order once said: "Even for garbage dump you need Real".
The train really went off the rails when I started doing coke. Definitely because I started doing coke at a time when I didn't have the financial means to do it and I immediately got greedy for it, for the stuff. This acquisitive crime thing, if you wanted something, then you took it. I didn't go up to you and tell you to give me your new phone or I'll punch you in the face. I was never like that. I always took it from you when you didn't know. I have always been very intelligent and a rogue. I got caught stealing a chocolate bar as you know.
Where then to stop like this? Oh yeah, that was such a juvenile oversight. All the greatest things I did, no one knew what my family did. When we break into cars or otherwise steal wallets and commit credit card fraud. That means my environment couldn't have any influence because they didn't notice. Maybe it would have been better if they caught me even then. The day I went to rehab, of course, all the feelings were there. Both the disappointment of myself, but also the feelings of my grandmother. pain, despair, hope. It was everything, all the feelings were basically there.
It was one of my low points, I think, in my life. Sure, yeah. I think I still had no idea during the detox where I was supposed to go professionally at some point. I didn't come out of detox and had a permanent job right away. In the beginning it was paramount that you be sober. Learning to fall asleep sober, without coke and without weed. A detox lasts a maximum of three weeks. I left after two weeks, so they fired me after two weeks. That was also great. But after only six or seven days, I said to my grandmother: you can pick me up.
They didn't do that. They said, "No, we want you to stay for two weeks." But at that point I already felt ready to say, Hey, I've had this sense of accomplishment that I can fall asleep sober. I ended up staying there for two weeks and coming back, but I was just as clueless about my future as before. Just stay sober. Well. Thanks! Good luck! Bye. Well then, let's move on. Come with Kylo. Now I could give you 50 examples that didn't work in my youth or in my growing adult life. And in the end I don't know what would have been if it had been like that.
I think it probably would have come down to not going back to hard drugs, but I definitely probably would have smoked weed again and definitely kept doing criminal stuff. And what happens when you do criminal things as an adult and you just get caught, then at some point you just walk in? No, it's quite logical. And many people don't understand when I say it: But I don't regret anything. My only regret to this day is that I stole from my grandparents. We have the best relationship imaginable right now, but for it to still give what was then the worst pain they've actually been in, that's something I regret, for sure!
Kylo is like a child I would say. Well, we have had it for a long time, or rather I share it with my ex-partner. It's definitely more with her, significantly more. But I enjoy the time that he is with me. He is now almost eight years old. Time flew like nothing else. And I think we first saw him, I don't know, when he was 16, 20 weeks. Then he laid on my chest like a little shit. Anyone who really loves their dog knows what I mean when I say that he is like a child. He is like a child, yes.
Yes of course, it was to my advantage that I wear my heart on my sleeve and am authentic. He has failed at times too. It is not like this. In 2014, 2015 was a little bit more relaxed in many points when you said certain things. Not everything was on the golden scale. Meanwhile, both the people and companies behind it have become much more sensitive, always wanting to be politically correct and just not say anything bad. You always call yourself a name, which really pisses me off. But you also have to adapt in a certain way. I too have grown, I have become older.
It's cool too, but back then it was a bit more laid back, definitely, for sure. There were phases where I started talking, live and then once it's live, you can't get it off the internet anymore. You can simply cut a YouTube video, but not a live stream. But I would not say that I think more about what I am going to talk about now. I really don't understand why Heckmeck says, 'Respect me here, respect me there as I am,' because it's something I grew up with 20 years ago. So now it's nothing new for me. I used to insult a lot more, freak out a lot more, confront a lot more.
And now I'll just say: You're getting on my nerves. Do your thing, I'll do mine. Leave me alone. I'm tired of headaches too, you know? I think it is very obvious to all of us that there is something wrong with the refugee policy on certain points. And that's a very healthy attitude that I have there. I think everyone should be welcomed with open arms here in Germany, but if they don't behave properly or become serious criminals, I don't think they have the right to be welcomed here with open arms anymore. This is something I really only get approval for on the internet.
If someone interprets that to me, it's like: You must be much more tolerant, or is it more like right-wing ideas that you share there. If you deal with the person Marcel Eris and MontanaBlack to some extent, you know that my nationality includes German-Turkish. And how could I tell anyone who comes to this country: fuck off? again. That's... hello, you know? But I have always shared what I do in life. Both kid friendly and not kid friendly. However, I will never tailor my content to what I have in mind: I also have a lot of young viewers watching, because I think it is simply the responsibility of the parents when they give their child the Internet to verify or understand what their child watches on the Internet.
I'm definitely not an educational channel where you somehow end up thinking, Wow, now I feel completely smart. I'm just near the audience. I know exactly what I'm doing and I like doing it. And I'll do it while I can because I enjoy it. I think in a way, one goal could be to build businesses at the same time, launch products, whatever. But not going live and telling people what I'm doing and what's going on in my life. I don't think I can ever do without it, because it's not just a hobby, it's also a passion and, in a way, also a therapy for oneself.
Maybe in five years I'll see things differently and say: the Internet is no longer for me. At this point, all I can say is no, I want to keep going, and I want to keep streaming. And I still want to stream when I'm 50. Just take a look. That was my episode of GERMANIA and you can write me in the comments what questions you might have for me or if you liked the episode. And you can subscribe to the channel here on the page if you don't want to miss anything. Here on the page you can watch the latest video and for more episodes visit the ZDF media library.
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