MontanaBlack: Zwischen Drogenexzessen und Sinneswandel
In the end, I don't even have to ask myself whether I want to continue streaming. The question is if people still want me to keep streaming. Because in the end you live off the fact that people are interested in you and whether people are still interested in me at 50 or 60. You? I don't know, I don't know. We'll see when the time comes. I'm Marcel I'm 34, come from Buxtehude. And I do, it's probably called an influencer. Although I don't like the term that much. I make cool stuff on the internet. Faster granny. So go full throttle. full throttle! step through!
Today there is the video that many have wished for, the "Try to not laugh challenge". I grew up in Buxtehude. It's not a big city, it's not a small town, 40,000 inhabitants and I'm a bit, I don't want to say multicultural, if it exists then it's probably already multicultural. Rather in the ghetto of Buxtehude until I was eleven, we moved away and I grew up well. We lacked nothing. But we didn't have much either, and what was missing was replaced by grandma and grandpa. I have German-Turkish citizenship. You won't believe me. But that's so yes. When I say I'm a German Turk and have Turkish ancestors on my mother's side, almost no one believes me, because I too, what do you associate with a Turk?
Naturally with a full beard, dark skin, brown eyes, black hair. I didn't grow up with it, so I don't have any connection to it. I'm a bit annoyed because I would have liked to have learned another language too. But even my mother couldn't speak Turkish because her parents didn't teach her. But not even my mother could speak Turkish. We are now learning Turkish. Yes = Evet. Speaker 1: Hay... That's really complicated. Why not just say no? Hay... Please = Memnu... Digga, I have no idea. So my Turkish ancestors, my Turkish roots don't really play a role in my life, because they were on my mother's side.
I also had a certain connection to my mother's family, but very little. Her parents, her father died very young, I never got to know him. Her mother also died very young when I was a child. And the relationship, as I already mentioned, between my mother and her parents was anything but great. As I said, violence played a very important role, alcoholism played a very important role. Well, I grew up, actually quite normally, I would say. My mother had me relatively early, at 19 I think, and she was in the home. In theory, that means that many have predicted that she will become a social recipient.
At that time it was still social assistance not Hartz4 and that she had many children and lived on social assistance. Yes, friends, you might not have thought of that in real life, but this is my mommy and I asked you a few questions on Facebook, which we will now answer together. But don't you want to say hello first? Hi! I'm very proud of her. She trained as an educator and now works in the home or in the home club where she used to be as a child. Helps the children now where she might have needed help before.
And so the circle closes, because my father used to work there too and sometimes took me there with him. Good morning. Hello my active friends and welcome. Another little special video today, because my dad is here at the start. Oberspritzer, now put a greeting on the table. Because we don't have them. You can just say 'hello'. Hello, running! Yes, my father has played a role in my life, no question. But I wouldn't say that we have this father-son relationship because my parents separated. Well, they were never married, they separated when I was one or something. Yes, and I actually had a good time with my dad, no question.
He lived in Lüneburg at the time. He shaped me a lot, musically too, above all. But then I got drugs when I was young and in the end I decided to take drugs and not spend the weekend with him. Then we have the next question from Dave and he asks: What would he do if you went back to drugs? Then a really hard basis of trust would be destroyed for the second time and for the third time. Exactly. And accordingly, I think there would be quite an alarm going on here. And I have the greatest respect for the fact that he's really been able to hold out for so long.
I only grew up on YouTube. I first did YouTube and then set foot in the door on Twitch. So I no longer cut my videos myself. I've had a permanent employee there for three years, Leon. The game changer was simply that you didn't work or worked little and had a lot of time to deal with the matter. And the technology just got more modern and certain games had functions where you could upload clips directly to YouTube. Hello my Call of Duty friends! I'm playing a game of search and destroy on Yemen. I have the Chicom with a red dot and a long barrel. there is one He probably needs a sip of target water.
I also. Well, I've never been in anywhere, game-wise. Neither does Docshield. But I've never been known for delivering crass gameplays. I just think the beginning of YouTube for me in 2013, 2014 was, like everything else, more uptight. Very few talked about drug use or their experiences and about their falls. And I stopped. Now everyone tells, somehow felt everything on the internet. Everyone spreads the message: Yo, be open to everything, respect everyone. It's just a lot more tolerant. The internet, as I always say: I was in the right place at the right time. I don't think the concept is in quotes.
It wasn't a concept, but what I did back then, if I were to do it again one-to-one now, I probably wouldn't be nearly as successful as I am now. A lot of people on the internet have become what the viewers want them to be. Do this, do this, do that. But I never became who the viewers wanted. I've always been who I want to be, namely Marcel. Speaker 2: I just didn't give a fuck about school, like that. I didn't give a fuck about school. I've said that many times in my videos. How do you, as a 15 or 16 year old, want to realize that what you are doing right now is the signpost for your future?
For me at 15 16 I didn't give a damn about my future. I lived in the here and now and for me it was important: What are the guys doing tonight? where can we go where can we chill Where can we smoke weed in peace? I realized far too late that school and an apprenticeship is what I will theoretically be later on. Not everyone is lucky enough to be in the right place at the right time like me to earn money with the Internet stuff. But the reality is what you do, you are later. And a wise man like a warrant once said: "Even for garbage man you need Real".
The train really derailed completely when I started to coke. Definitely because I started doing coke at a time when I didn't have the financial means to do it and I immediately got greedy for it, for the stuff. This acquisitive crime thing, if I wanted something, then I took it. I didn't go up to you and say give me your new phone or I'll punch you in the face. I was never like that. I always took it from you when you didn't know. I've always been very clever and a rascal. I got caught stealing a bar of chocolate like you know.
Where then stop like this: Oh yes, that was such youthful carelessness. All the bigger things I did, no one ever knew what my family did. When we broke into cars or somehow stole wallets and committed credit card fraud. That means my environment couldn't have any influence on it because they didn't notice. Maybe it would have been better if I had been caught even then. On the day I went to rehab, of course, all the feelings were there. Both disappointment from myself, but also feelings from my grandma. pain, despair, hope. It was everything, all the feelings were basically there.
It was one of my low points, I think, in my life. safe, yes I think I was still completely clueless during the detoxification as to where I was supposed to go professionally at some point. I didn't come out of detoxification and had a permanent job right away. At first it was paramount that you just be sober. Learning to fall asleep sober, both coke-free, and weed-free. A detox takes a maximum of three weeks. I left after two weeks, so got fired after two weeks. That was all cool too. But after just six or seven days, I said to my grandmother: You can pick me up.
They didn't do that. They said: "No, we want you to stay two weeks". But at that point I already felt ready to say: Hey, I've had this sense of achievement that I can fall asleep sober. I ended up being there for two weeks and coming back, but I was just as disoriented about my future as I was before. Just stay sober. Good. Thanks! Let it be well with you! Bye Bye. Well then, let's move on. Come with Kylo. I could now give you 50 examples that didn't work out in my youth or in my growing adult life.
And in the end I don't know what I would have been if it had been like that. I think it probably would have come down to not getting back into hardcore drugs, but I definitely probably would have smoked weed again and I definitely would have continued doing criminal stuff. And what happens when you do criminal things as an adult and just get caught, then at some point you just go in. No, it's quite logical. And a lot of people don't understand when I say it: But I don't regret anything. The only thing I regret to this day is that I stole from my grandparents.
We have the best relationship imaginable right now, but that I still gave what was then the worst pain they actually ever had, that's something I regret, safe! Kylo is like a kid I would say. Well then, we've had it for a long time now, or rather I share it with my ex-partner. It's definitely more with her, significantly more. But I enjoy the time he is with me. He's almost eight years old now. Time flew by like nothing else. And I think we saw him for the first time, I don't know, when he was 16, 20 weeks old. Then he lay on my chest like a little shit.
Someone who really loves their dog knows what I mean when I say it's like a child. Is like a child, yes. Yes, of course it was my advantage that I wear my heart on my sleeve and am authentic. Has backfired at times too. It's not like that. In 2014, 2015 it was a bit more relaxed on many points when you said certain things. Not everything was put on the gold scales. Meanwhile, both the people and the companies behind it have become much more sensitive, always wanting to be politically correct and just don't say anything wrong. Always epetete, what really pisses me off.
But you also have to adapt in a certain way. I've also grown up, gotten older. It's all cool too, but back then it was a bit more relaxed, definitely, safe. There were phases where I just started talking, live and then, once it's live, you can't get it off the internet anymore. You can simply cut out a YouTube video, but not a live stream. But I wouldn't say that I think more about what I'm going to talk about now. I don't really understand why Heckmeck is like: 'Respect me here, respect me there as I am', because it's something I grew up with 20 years ago.
So it's nothing new for me now. I used to insult a lot more, freak out a lot more, confront a lot more. And now I'll just say: You're getting on my nerves. Do your thing, I'll do my thing. Leave me alone. I'm tired of headaches too, you know. I think it is very obvious to all of us that there is something wrong with refugee policy on certain points. And that's a very healthy attitude that I have there. I think everyone should be welcomed with open arms here in Germany, but if they don't behave accordingly or become serious criminals, then I don't think they have the right to continue to be welcomed here with open arms.
This is something I actually only get approval for on the internet. If anyone interprets that for me, it's like: You must be much more tolerant, or it's more like right-wing ideas what you share there. If you deal with the person Marcel Eris and MontanaBlack to some extent, you know that my nationality includes German-Turkish. And how could I tell any people who come into this country: piss off