THE NEW LIFE OF BILLY AND COLEEN! | Karen Davila Ep58
strange that's what you meant so that's Colleen's new paradise it's now how old is he now he's going to be in September it's so cute come here so cute how long do you plan to breastfeed um well my goal was originally three years okay yes it is almost two years now so yeah and i just have to keep pushing for another year you really want three years three years yeah cuz you don't wean him well. I mean he still drinks so much yeah yeah and you produce so much I guess cuz I never come you know whats great to be different from your older generations, um, I breastfeed, we would don't see it openly, yeah, more conservative, even now that I was a first time mom, but people wouldn't really show they're breastfeeding, but it wasn't in the public eye now, you're so proud of Instagram, because I'm following you we want to normalize it you know because how extra okay as in my career so many times I've had to show my body you know I've had to wear bikini although as much as possible during that phase in my In
life I try to avoid doing it for men, yes because you know I wanted to do it for other women or for myself so this is just another phase in my
life where I am trying to improve my body Yes, I think you know, as long as he needs milk, was um then should you give him cow milk if he can give him the milk meant for the baby?
Oh, and let's face it, breast milk really is the best thing for babies, but It tells us it's changed you. Breastfeeding is truly the most selfless thing I've ever had to do. It's not just like you're borrowing your body for the entire two years. I have nowhere to go so he doesn't sleep through the night we decided not to sleep so oh my god but it's always for milk and there it's frustrated wow yeah and it's very exhausting because when I was born and started breastfeeding my lips were so dry and then I literally felt like my
life was being sucked dry when you and Bill you got married I would have to say at the peak of your career how did that go changes?
Okay, I'll start by saying there are people who say now you can do anything and end up sacrificing something, which I don't know, and I was like, you know, I listened to these people, you can do anything do, and but with the kind of mom I want to be for Amari I can't, I can't do everything, I would have to sacrifice either time with him or I would have to sacrifice a bit of my career but as I'm breastfeeding him and we don't pump and don't use bottles we never use bottles with the marines wow yeah we never use yeah so I can't leave them a military history of food and his source of milk so I guess I can't leave him what You had to sacrifice or give up when you made the decision to be a full-time dedicated hands-on mom and I don't think it's just because of becoming a mom and being a breastfeeding mom, it's because of the pandemic that's a choice just d For being safe and the fear is there, what is it? like i've been married to
billy for four years now it really feels like i'm living my dream come true it's always been one of my dreams my goals even before i met bellina oh no because my parents are separated i haven't really grown up in um the happiest childhood, so it was always my goal, my biggest goal, my biggest dream, to have a family, to be married, to have kids, and now that I'm living it, you know, and sometimes I like mine Career, my personal
life and everything that I can only remember, I'm living in my dream right now and everything else will follow to make it something else, to talk about how much
Billy means to you and what he has made a difference in your own
life , well,
billy gave me the confidence i never had and you know they say you shouldn't get that from other people i know but how he motivates me, he reminds me of who i am am when i forget and there have been times because different relationships and sometimes other relationships can be toxic or even if those relationships are family or friends oh my god oh yeah can you get your red can you get your orange basketball but um with
billy like he always talks um
life about me he's always um thanks thanks
billy always talked about you
life yeah you know what your partner says to you it's really going to affect how you think about this person and um sometimes there are people now that you didn't notice there's something bad about you or something you know would make you insecure and it just takes one person to point it out and with
billy like he's me that never would have done, he never said a bad thing about me in his whole
life, he never said a bad thing about me for me, even if i said bad things, you know, that s they say hurt people hurt people yeah yeah so you know as i'm scarred in a lot of ways how sometimes the way i speak uh hurts cause i've been spoken to like that all my
life so i'm still trying to unlearn these things but when we fight sometimes you know i wouldn't curse him or whatever but like um i would say some things that are true but they're painful like there's a better way to say it, and he's just never like that, you knew right away it was
Billy, um, I mean, when you started Showtime, no, you don't need Showtime and there you go be and i miss the guru in a daily show but at the same time i don't because you know it depends on the kind of person you are and i thought my real
life relationships are really that important and I've missed so many weddings I've got so many winemakers ge missed and so many it's a commitment and so many people are willing to make that commitment but for me I can't see myself doing that my whole
life that's what matters and looking You outside, although we can go outside if you want, let's go.
Billy, let's go. I love this part, yes this is your lanai but it is so pretty. I got this as a gift for
billy because he asked for it i think it was for a birthday or something or an anniversary ok he just wants to open and close it ok ok of course i will let him and yes ok open that yes that's our um sometimes we move all this furniture and then this plant we just put these plants here because it's raining yes it's so nice this area the whole vibe but yeah sorry if you fixed the house , that's the house shop, yeah, authentic, oh my god, yeah, so that's very ideal for Amari, yeah, and then that's the Armad, yeah that's our mats when we box, so the owner He has us this um gifted and then we bought this so it could swing comedy, so it really goes a long way.
It really is such a beautiful property really like that, yes, but when we where it rained, yes, so it was a really cozy feeling, it wasn't like the sun was coming in or anything, but we got the rain felt like you could almost feel it, yes, because yes, the skylight is right where it is in the middle of the house, so I was like, wow, this house is something different, I love it, and then he came into Masters and everything is fine this is the house oh this is the woman what kind of woman are you lazy no amazing you also said on his instagram yes yes it is your best yes red and black show me skyrim right so what kind of woman are you um i would say i don't know supportive i'm sure not jealous or you're more jealous yes yeah um i mean i can't put it into words because i feel like you can't just box and then guess you know someone with just words you know like hands-o n and damn ways to be hands-on and damn how we with amari love every single caring mother but it strikes me that motherhood is your ultimate joy you see that was the whole purpose that was kind of your calling well i definitely always wanted to be a mom and now that i am a mom i am so happy i wouldnt rewind i wouldnt fast forward as i am its the first time in my whole
life that I'm so happy to be in the now I wanted to ask you that Amari contributed to your healing and made you whole, I mean really as they always say question you should be whole and you should be healed and you should be in your perfect human state before you get a husband or before you find the right person, before you have a family and everything, but I really think it's an ongoing process, like you know, healing and becoming whole, so with you know, with
Billy and and with Amari like I'm not saying I knew myself fully and I think at this point I'm still discovering who I am, I'm still discovering what I'm capable of and so I think it's now as a person a lie before you have a family or before you get married i think ss it would be better if you knew who you are but i don't know of a birth cassette and i'm sure a lot of mothers can identify with it but atI lost who I was at birth so it doesn't matter it will be wiped clean then when you give birth do you want to have other children more children you know what we talked about before my mother wanted that i have six and then after mari when amari was born
billy showed me amari and i still delivered the placenta and vinnie said no he was he had tears in his eyes he was like love look its our son the sabbat say hello to your only child yes right and did you do it without an epidural yes yes oh my god above yes yes i wouldnt say i enjoyed it but its the best i would I do my san again I can do it like this in the hospital which was my ideal I asked the hospital and they did it they know because of the pandemic they make everything they didn't have it in the hospital I wouldn't I wouldn't do it any differently like I would Next time don't do an epidural, yeah that's our kitchen and I'm sorry it's such a mess right now because obviously nice we had to move, we had to move everything over here.
I think it was my dad my dad was here so he was in a wheelchair and on a walker so I needed the space so I had to move everything here it's your dad's condition today umm except age of course yeah, um, he has coumadin levels, that's his blood, um, is so thin, yeah that it's kinda like water now, so every time the masugatancha got even a little scratch from it, it just won . Don't stop bleeding so normal max comedy level is 5.5 yes my dad was 10.5 the day before yesterday oh my god so it was way over the max he can have emotionally than you like that thankful your dad met your son, yeah, i mean uh, that was my biggest dream.
First was the wedding and then when God made that possible, um and I was praying hard um, at some point I think last Christmas we wanted to go home. I'll just visit my father. I will take Amari there with Colleen and anything goes, prices were almost 1.2 1.3 at the time and I can do it. I don't really spend that much for at least five days so just being with my dad the other is completely exhausted he has overcome throat cancer Colleen has a closer relationship with the Lord yes and I see how has that changed you? I was completely turned 180 degrees.
Oh, um, I was addicted to alcohol at times, but after asap, you know, it was a good time, to be honest, it was a great time, but um, it started affecting me as a person, it started to affect my judgement, it started to affect my work, it started to affect uh and if i appreciate that d the difference between colleen cassette was she was never energetic, reverse psychology do what you want yeah, i'm too tired i hate the feeling the hangover after the headache the jitters the tiredness etc etc when you interview someone else um that was the first step when i got arrested when i did all the stuff here went through it in the philippines, other places around the world, um, when we tied the knot, because we went through a lot back then, and then I think God made it a big picture, uh, like you say this premonition for me because as I saw i saw a happy family i saw my dad and mom come here which i prayed so hard for yeah um and then i said ok i give up yeah it's like you you we can't impose god what he's doing to us, we just have to accept and acknowledge that his presence is there, and we have this belief that we call "I don't want to waste my family." You know I have a lovely family nothing else but good things ahead but the exams and stuff that's yet to go through but alumna in