Was ist eig los mit mir
What's up guys? How are they? I hope that you are well. I want to make another video today. I think he is fine in this location as well. one or the other realized in the last few months for the last year and a half I behaved differently I have become a little more withdrawn really for many maybe somehow more arrogant just holidays no more continuous video delivery no joy anymore Real I find it Extremely disgusting for videotaping, I'll tell you like it is, but I thought I'd let you in on things I've been doing for 12 years of my life, whether it's ups and downs, and I've thought about it a lot. about it and I think filming this video is an enrichment for me and also one grows together with you because I think every one of you knows that Life doesn't just have ups and downs, life also has really disgusting ups and downs and yes I'm in such a disgusting depth at the moment or am I now am currently and I have also found myself in the last few years only the last few months has been real To put it more bluntly, I am in a state of depression, so I also have things.
Mental illness goes in the direction of obsessive-compulsive thinking. I don't want to go into too much detail about it. Now, because it's still very uncomfortable for me to talk about it, I just made my first advances with it, because in that I say go in the direction of relaxation, so if I want, I just want to share it with you so that you understand if you've seen me, hey, I'm always on vacation I'm always in Mykonos or I don't know so it wasn't me who said hey I have to live the good life now I fuck everything up and go there all the time to relax or actually the sea was like an escape because in the first phase where i went down i had unbelievable feelings of happiness because it was unbelievably good for me and after that i saw myself again and again just to travel the.to all the trimmings of course that was fun too that was cool too but in some time is enough but I couldn't get out of it anymore and the longer and here the more I tried and the sea that didn't work getting out of there the worse it was for me and until I got into In the last few months I was really so unhappy and unsatisfied. i hurt myself that i couldn't shoot videos anymore and i let them take away everything that really means something to me and believe me one thing i would like to be i didn't always go to Mykonos and would have drank there but i would rather be intimidated and give gas to my company n sped up here on Youtube but I couldn't it just didn't work and I couldn't talk about it either that blocked me unbelievably I've been on Youtube for 12 years it feels like half my life so it's important for me to share with you and to be able to say, hey guys, maybe I'm okay right now, we're having a great time, but I think it's just as important to say, hey guys, I feel like shit right now. i'm being honest with you i'm actually in the entertainment industry for some either but i'm actually in the entertainment industry i actually want to make jokes i want to be entertaining but if someone just has depression and if you just feel like crap then you can't afford the entertainment costs that's unfortunately easy for video here too don't drag it out i just wanna say guys i feel like crap ok frankly and to be honest i feel like shit when you see me if i'm in any way sticking up or disinterested or endless or antisocial then that's not why right now because i think it would be ruder there at that time that's just why i I feel very bad, but in the last few days I have finally played a bit of positivity again.
I've also talked a lot with Tim. Tim is really a great guy. Definitely, I am also in treatment, my psychologist also told me. me, there are a lot of people who support me, people who are probably mentally challenged and i can really just tell everyone, people who shouldn't underestimate that mental challenge at all, it's completely fucked up, you feel like you're at a dead end where you are alone but believe me you are not alone talk to your people no matter how uncomfortable the subject may be for you see a psychologist he will help you let someone like that help you Don't hit shit.
I will do it. I will also fight it and it is very difficult for me too, but I want to get the old bib back. I want the bib that makes great and entertaining videos. That he is in a good mood. fitness entertainment bad times good times all the trimmings I'm more motivated to get back in and out of the hole no matter how hard it is for me to shoot this funny video right now I think it's important somewhere and to get it right I'm looking forward to it October soap opera. It motivates me a lot.
Finally, I train again. Don't drink anymore. Hopefully there will be excellent content with the boys again. videos coming I will definitely try still shooting videos in the near future because I want to continue that's my suffering too schaft I love that shit yeah too thanks for listening guys I wish you all the best and see you in the next video check it out