Wie Ines um ihren Freund trauert I 37 Grad
The ER doctor was there within ten minutes, but there was simply nothing else they could do. They could no longer define it. He appreciated it very much. We have it here. It helps to live the memories because I have the feeling that I have not left. I am
Ines, I am 36 years old and I lost my boyfriend, my partner, in November of last year, who died suddenly. i just face it over and over again being confronted with him is confronting my previous life i think that helps in the processing and in the whole process roland was very sociable very caring loving roland was fun roland was super smart totally smart he h on always took care of everything made sure everyone was okay everyone got what they wanted always helped everywhere and helped us a lot our relationship with each other was I would say very special we were very different optically in age professionally he did not we really fit together but somehow very well we were on the same wavelength we got along very well we had the same sense of humor we laughed at the same things we did feel we didn't need many words to describe understanding each other and i really appreciated that from him from the age of four onwards for the first time with us.
It's very common that you go hiking first and maybe drink a little alcohol and I did it with friends and he was on duty so he was political yeah I got it. yes he came up to me i saw him and i immediately thought what kind of a man a 98 meter tall chicken egg and i talked to him and i said hey you don't even have a ring on your finger he can still pass with the two of us and yes , he smiled right away and I think he likes me too and then you came back and gave me his at some point. point the name card slid and my day you can contact me and yeah then it got very intense very fast and a week later she was here with me and I never left and I there she slid the name card diamir that too i would like a must have darling so that there are still bus
iness cards i think those like the name alba for god sake really silly really stupid but somehow also funny we cooked a lot together we ate a lot together we also went out to eat a lot we worked together a lot on site of construction when he renovated the house in his spare time and i helped a lot he taught me a lot we ran a lot together in the green no matter what we did because everything was somehow alright so roland also gave me the chain on the heart bones of the existing ones roland shot had ossified in the old vicarage of the heart when the man shoots the give me your heart make his love and he gave it to me and then I put it in the glass many yes now I also wear the necklace on special occasions on November 11, 2021 I had a message in my mailbox from his ex-wife you heard it and yes she then very emotional and with tears reported that roland had collapsed that the ER doctor but that doesn't look good.
I called her right away and by then it was too late so then and there he had already been pronounced dead by the ER doctor and yes roland. I died very suddenly he visited his children and his ex-wife he also had a very good relationship he got out of the car sic he grabbed his chest and said where was I in pain vienna and he collapsed, his ex-wife and passers-by revived him immediately and a ambulance arrived in ten minutes but there was nothing they could do anymore they couldn't help him anymore vibrating it was a zero line because it was immediately pretty much the first thought it ain't shit otherwise you can't tell so the first few days were very special I didn't get out of bed in the morning so I could get up early if I had to my son gets home from school around 12 1 I was paralyzed and lay in bed it was utter empt
iness it was unbelievable it was surreal it also took me a long time to understand it was sheer despair it was sadness anger fear of the future utterly overwhelmed yes it was pretty useless because no one can tell how long it will last there is no patented remedy and there is one for a forever there is a solution lution in life somehow but not for that and that also scares you that you don't know how long this feeling lasts what do I have to do to get better now that I'm 36 and a widow and it's not even that we really weren't married what am I doing with my life now so we had plans for the future we wanted to travel maybe we wanted to live together at some point and it's all gone now it's unfair that's not fair so i definitely associate roland with the forest he had before I don't really have a connection to the forest I have to say to be honest but through roland definitely so roland me soon you can't say it any other way and baltische roland I knew relatively quickly that roland is the love of my life it seemed to me correct for a second and the funeral was perfect I don't know if that can tell me that a funeral is nice but also very dignified and I think it would have I liked it there were a lot of people so I can't say anymore and I think it was exactly 5,600 people that one or a few moments where I really had to cry when it started because then all the tension of the last few days went away and the dams absolutely broke, so it left a huge void and I'm also convinced not just for me but for everything that means family as friends are colleagues i think its just a gap that will never close clearly because he was just a very special person every person is that special but roland was particularly special and the gap that will always remain with all the hessians like roland has never accompanied anything before so sadness is with me now so i probably dumped a bottle of beer out of my backpack roland was passionate about beer drinkers and has somehow become so established in the last few months that when i h here i am with him i just put a bottle of beer on the grave shit what i was here with my parents and my brothers for two there everyone was drinking beer or some kind of mixed drink sometimes just kind of a good vibe that sounds really stupid in a graveyard something to say but it was like that it felt good and i'm sure when he saw it we cheered and cheered harz then cheer roland I miss him as a person I miss the time we spent together I miss a laugh I also miss his seriousness his support his advice he always gave good advice I miss that because no one gives advice anymore I have to think about it myself pain is something absolutely individual sum I could never have imagined how it's like that sometimes they get thrown there you can't defend yourself and then you have to make sure you get to the surface and how there it doesn't matter at all he's very open about roland's death and my grief on instagram because i noticed it's good to write it from my soul and of course also to receive encouragement and somehow it has developed in such a way that me writing letters to him writes was such a proc It wasn't like that at first, now it's like that, I always talk to him and logically I don't get any reaction from him, but from a lot of other people and that's good for me, yes, the memory helps me live because that's how I feel that he's not gone he was there and he's still there now but i think if you don't even think about someone then he really is gone but if he's there somehow he still floats across the room and is present without that it hurts when i feel good that was a shirt of him had to wear a lot of shirts to work or just shirts and yeah i just saw the side gene of the back of his back äht and that was and his favorite shirts cut the city and somehow they put it back together to make a whole and now that's just a manroland cushion so i also visited a bereavement group so i caught up real quick i care alot then i got a place and i was there twice, that was very well done, I have to say though I only do by far the youngest so they were women only women I would say 60 and over and I quickly realized that it's on a different level so I think a the age of 60, 70, 80 you just have different worries and fears when your partner dies because you spent a lot more time together and of course women are socialized very differently and dealing with grief is a very different thing so I'm going to a good friend of mine who is just reacting to her house and i will help her and roland vi has it. the fact and I've been helping my girlfriend since February regularly several times a week depending on what needs to be done well I think it's kind of a relic of the past that you can wear black on the trojan and you can't go dancing and you can't I laugh I see but that's different I think my pain is mine the time I want and I don't have to do that with clothes we have a motto it's a little my wife is and I'm colorful the pain is colorful I go my way, each one He goes his own way, but he also goes my own way and does what's good for me. got now because of it he didn't give up or give up or anything else his pain is definitely the conventional one which has to be said in all honesty many really fall into a hole just sit back hi. n today, for hours or sun protection, she certainly did too, but only for herself in guide strokes, yes, then the topic here with us here with the construction site, she said, I always cleaned all the houses in roland and renovated to david and i turned it into something that makes it fun and it was like that basically then the memory maybe takes us back yeah but those were happy times that i enjoy and she wants to hold on to that that's pretty cool too so i like it It's good, I see him that way too, but it's also nice to hear more from him and I have to say that I had to learn that, and things like that are still hard to come by, he has his moments like this, I feel more than usual . because I just have a lot of memories so I see a lot of things that mean a spatula or a scraper scraping things off the ceiling or the wall and then I think of something besides that it's broken in that case the house would be yes and but something new is being created from new so here the sheets of drywall are somehow screwed to the wall and scored together and cleaned and something new and beautiful is created and yeah maybe you can do that a little bit as a metaphor I see something is it's going to break up but it's new and good and maybe better too so i'm not even saying that because i'm going to somehow rule this relationship or make it bad but yeah i see the future in a positive way and i hope it will. be good and it will be good that can only be good so I try to keep up with people and maybe even go there again even if you think it has done I no longer feel like it today or if for example my Grandpa is It's also very old to stop for a moment and say hello and maybe sit for two more minutes because you know it never ends and at some point it will sometimes go faster and sometimes it takes longer but I've already figured out that actually you use every second where i really do it myself, its not just about others but also about you when you do this.
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